Thursday, September 20, 2007

The Longest Goodbye

So here's a quick breakdown of my day. Get to company by 3, which in Army talk means 2:45 (14:45 really). Upon arriving be told that he needs to take his A-Bag to Brigade, on the way back to the company after dropping off his bag I realized I forgot the letter for hubby & on the way to get the letter after dropping hubby off I got a phone call saying he forgot his Kevlar (his helmet!). I got back to the company rushing like a mad woman panicked that I would miss him. 6 hours and 5 or so 'last kisses & goodbyes' later we got home. I don't know if this is routine because it is my first deployment but OMG it was so emotionally draining. I'd prefer to rip a band-aid off instead of taking it off as slowly as possible. Don't get me wrong I was happy to have the extra time with my hubby but it was just exhausting.

Fortunately the kids did pretty well & we got lots of pictures, taken by one of my hubby's friends girlfriend because my camera is broken so I'll get an e-mail with them in the next few days. He looked so good in his uniform with all of his gear and I am so so proud. Michael wanted to play with his 'boom boom stick' (his gun) but settled for wearing his boony hat, the ones that look sorta like fishing hats. Our daughter is too little to know anything that is going on but my son wanted to go bye bye with daddy and kept asking for one more kiss and one more goodbye after he was already off to the bus. We both had a cry before heading back to the car and they both went to bed well, esp because they missed nap times and were well past bedtime.

When Michael woke up this morning asking where daddy was I reminded him about daddy going on the bus to go bye bye for a long time. He responded like he remembered but then coming down stairs he said 'uh oh, daddy missing'. I think he'll have some trouble because he understands 'bye bye' but he doesn't understand time yet. I can't even tell him things like "tomorrow we'll go to the park" because he wants to go right then.

Now I've got to focus on getting ready for moving and all that goes along with that. I may not be on very often still because of that. I have to get boxes, start packing, and go to various offices to get everything set. I will be on more often than the past few days though. When I get some pictures I'll share them with you all.

Thanks for visiting! And thank you for all of the support & encouragement from everyone.

♥

10 comments:

Anonymous said...

Oh, Rebecca, my heart goes out to you. Let any of us know how to help and I'm sure we will!

Christine - Tutorial Addict :) said...

Oh my heart is just breaking for you. Thank you for sharing though, for those of us who love and adore you, we want SO BADLY to help you. I really hope that writing out your feelings, sad and glad, makes you feel like you are NOT alone. You have so many people who will stand behind you and support you through this as much as we possibly can. I can't imagine what you're going through or how strong you'll have to be for your kids, but I do know that you will make it through this. Do whatever you have to, cry, scream, laugh {call me for that one, I'm good at that ;-)} WHATEVER you need! and we will all be here for whatever we can do!

tammi said...

I have a teensy bit of an idea how you're feeling right now, but sending my husband off to drive on ice roads up north for two months is very different from where and what your husband is headed off to. You're constantly in my thoughts and prayers, especially now while you adjust to pseudo-single parenthood.

{{{HUGS}}}
tammi

Heather said...

Well I hope moving all goes well. And hang in there he'll be home in no time. Your in my prayers.

Sherry said...

Oh Wow. My thoughts and prayers are with you also! I, too, can't imagine what you must be going through right now, but you are definitely an inspirational mommy and wife!

Sending absolutely best wishes to you and your family,

Sherry

Anonymous said...

Thinking of you and all of your family..your hubby is such a hero to us all so please send him our best too. I hope the move goes very smoothly for you :)

Melanie Faith said...

God will reward you for your faithfulness. Keep running to him; he'll make a garden from the desert places! He will also give you wisdom in how to guide your children through this.

Andrea said...

You sound very strong. I'll pray for continued strength throughout your husband's absence. I'm glad you have moving to help keep you busy for awhile at least.

Unknown said...

I love your image to the side...she looked in the mirror..wow blow that one up & keep it glued to my palms to look at each day.

Thank you for sharing. I am deeply grateful for families like yours that truly believe in serving & are willing to give for this country. It is very honorable and noble. I hope that all goes well for you all!

Kimberly McKay said...

That has got to be the hardest part is re-explaining it to your son. My heart is also breaking for you. I'm so sorry Rebecca!

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