Showing posts with label Myself. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Myself. Show all posts

Wednesday, December 2, 2009

Things I Did{n't} Do Today

  • Fell asleep after waking up to get Michael ready for school.
  • Got him to school on time & remembered to pick him up for early release day.
  • Gave myself a case of wife/mommy guilt for not getting much anything done today.
  • Watched LOST & am even more excited about the season premier in 9 Tuesdays! 
  • Made 1000 mental lists of things that I need to get done before vacation, moving & baby.
  • Got tired again.
  • Googled old wives tales about guessing baby gender.
  • Found out that an ancient Chinese predictor chart thinks I'm having a boy.
 
  • Wake up rested or figure out how to break Lydia's habit of climbing in bed with us at night.
  • Take a shower.
  • Clean enough that I could notice what exactly I cleaned today.
  • Make a well rounded meal.
  • Go more than five minutes without complaining about an ache.
  • Remember to swap the laundry within 2 hours of putting it in.
  • Get up without heading straight to the toilet.
  • Manage to stay awake all afternoon.
  • Think about food without feeling queasy.

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

...

Ya know that feeling when you're being stretched too many directions and juggling too many things and you wonder how much you can hold and how far you can go before you just break? Yeah, I was there. Not only did I feel like it was just.too.much. but I wasn't doing any of it well. And if you're going to do something, what's the point if you don't give it your best?

I didn't completely fall apart but sorta fell...in. I imploded. I stopped just about everything for some moments and got analytical and emotional and well the whole thing was a little depressing so I won't go into it. But it was like I just stopped and kinda went into auto pilot doing the things I had to do because if I didn't who would? As I was just trying to function I realized there were more than several things I wasn't doing very well and I was a little surprised about which things I wasn't doing well actually bothered me.

I've been thinking more about my role as a housewife & mom, and a woman. It seems that something shifts when we get married and/or have babies. Just being a woman, being ourselves is somehow now it's own little thing set to the side for another day when we have more time because everyone else needs so much right.at.this.moment. Or maybe that's just me thinking too much again? I don't mean just taking time to get dressed, fix our hair or put on a little makeup {if you enjoy it} but time to do whatever we enjoy without feeling guilty about it. And again, maybe it's just me.

Sunday, August 9, 2009

A Day of Milestones

So if Michael turning 5 wasn't enough he had to start kindergarten. Who does he think he is right? Just growing up leaving me alone with Lydia all day and making me set my alarm M-F...I haven't done that in years. Though I haven't really had a need since the kids are up by 6 anyway. Or were. The first day of school was also the first day that I had to wake Michael up in the morning. Bummer right? It would have been nice to enjoy it.

Then it was Lydia's turn to get all 'big girl' on me. It kind of just happened but then she made a decision and there's no turning back. She handed me a dirty diaper, yes a dirty one. After cleaning her up I realized I was out of diapers. o.O So she got a pair of panties until we made it to the store. Before I could make it out she announced she was going to use the potty. And then she did. And then she did 3 more times {including a poo}. And then I was waiting for pigs to fly by my window. Because that just.doesn't.happen. Right? Michael was nearly 4 before he was interested and we struggled. So for my not yet 3 year old to just do it....I was shocked. Of course it hasn't been that smooth since starting, that pig never flew by.

All in the same day that Michael started kindergarten and Lydia decided to go potty, Shawn found a gray hair. Not his first and definitely not the last but it was interesting timing for one to pop up on such a momentous day. Luckily I didn't have an extra fine line...though there may have been a pimple. Is anyone else out there trying to fight aging {or at least slow it as much as possible} while also fighting the signs of your youth in some degree of acne. Typically it's a hormonal thing for me...I'll put Shawn on alert. ;)

So I promise I've been doing more than washing peed on laundry, adjusting to my son being in school full time and scrutenizing my face in the mirror. But that will be for another day. If your child is in school - congratulations, enjoy your time! If your kids go back to school at the normal after summer time then enjoy your time!

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

Help! I lost "me" & don't know where to find her!

Don't worry - you don't have to call the authorities or anything. Unless they've got one of those quiet padded rooms waiting for me. :D I don't know if this is like a quarter life crisis or just a contagious self retrospection thing that seems to be going around but whatever it is I've been affected.

When I was in high school I had more guy friends than girls, and no I wasn't any extra *friendly* with the boys so don't get the wrong idea. It was just easyer. There wasn't the drama, 'competition', gossip, back biting....none of that drama with the boys. That came after high school when they all wanted me to like them. I kid...mostly.

After becoming a married woman & mom my friendships changed quite drastically and have been exclusively with women, except for their husbands but we were "couple" friends. For the most part I didn't have the drama to deal with in my group of friends back home. That was nice. It was easy. Now it would be refreshing.

Lately there seems to be a drama bug biting people in various circles of friends and I'm just.tired.of.it. But then as I talk to my bestie about the drama I wonder - am *I* part of the problem? Do I thrive on the drama and get carried away in conversation? ouch. It stings to give yourself a hard look in the mirror and not make excuses or justify behavior done with bad judgement.

Can someone take that mirror away please? Or cover it with something maybe? No? Darn.

One of my mom's favorite songs was Man In The Mirror by Michael Jackson. It's on my playlist if you'd like to reminisce or refresh your memory of the song. I know he's talking about making changes of much more significance but it really does all start with ourselves. If we want to make a change in the world on any level we must honestly look at ourselves and change our day to day behavior & thoughts. ouch, that can hurt.

I want to look back on my life and be at least mostly satisfied with the choices I made and the attitudes I had. If you asked my husband he would tell you that I can get some attitude for sure! But I want to have a good attitude. I want to be content with my life, find that silver lining and just.be. Without worrying about what this or that person thinks about any of it, unless they are a person whose opinion I highly value & are trying to help me be the best me I can be. Those people I could probably count on one hand.

I hope that it is in fact possible to have several acquantances & friendships with women without getting caught up in the drama of it all. I know it can happen because I've had it before. So I just need to find it and me again.

Sunday, June 28, 2009

Where's the EASY Button?

Well, no scrappy post for me to share this week. I did make a card yesterday but didn't take a picture yet so I'll share that next week along with whatever else I manage to create. I haven't posted much outside of scrap & some pictures. There's been plenty going on but I haven't had the time or desired to make the time to post about it, and some of it really isn't all that interesting. I live in the mid south so I could whine talk about how the heat & humidity have trapped me indoors with the blessing that is air conditioning. Or I could talk about the sudden rain that comes & goes without leaving trace. A little more exiting would be the night we thought a tornado was coming & took cover in the laundry room - after Shawn & I admired the cloud rotations. Then there was another night with a severe thunderstorm that put on the most awesome lightening I've ever seen. A HUGE bolt of lightening hit ground about 100 yards behind our house (luckily it's an empty field), sadly a house on post was struck & caught fire but no one was hurt as far as I know. We were in awe & jumped at the sight of it, I would have loved to have caught that on camera.

Other things on my mind have been the turmoil that a certain well known couple is going though. I don't want to talk about it but my heart broke for J&K, even more for the 8. I read this post that is related to the story real life woes and I think he had the best there is to say about the whole situation. I highly recommend you click on the link and read it for yourself as well. I played Michael Jackson music much of the day Friday, mostly because I thought that is what my mom would have done if she was still here to hear the news. Man In The Mirror was her favorite song of his. He was a talented man who definitely left his mark & influence in the musical world. As for all of the other stuff surrounding him, only he & God know. I hope he has found peace.

Today I am still recovering from a hard choice I had to make yesterday. I was discouraged, disappointed and just down. It was a rough day. You know that feeling when you really want something? I mean really want it, and you think it's going to happen, you think it so much that you pretty much know it will happen? And then. It doesn't. Someone or something pretty much says "nope" and the rug is pulled out from under you and you fall hard on your rear bruising your tail bone and bumping your head all while a knot forms in your stomach. That's the disappointment I had yesterday. It doesn't really matter what the disappointment was but more of how I will choose to handle that disappointment. I could become bitter. I could get discouraged and give up all together. Or. I could pull the bootstraps back up, go on & start over. I could trust that making that hard choice was the right choice and that it's all part of the bigger picture and one day in the future I'll look back and say "I'm glad" for that hard decision. I will say that the hard choice had to do with submission (ouch!) and making a sacrifice (saltinthewound).

I have been writing and rewriting and saving a post about my mom as well. There was finally a trial and a verdict was reached and life goes on. I will be sharing soon, just need some more write & rewrite time.

I hope you are enjoying your weekend and summer! I've got housework before taking the kids to the pool today - assuming the weather cooperates, around here you never know. Oh & if you want to reminisce with some Michael Jackson I have quite a few songs in my play list. I will be updating that soon too, there are several songs that I love to dance to in my car while driving around town - doesn't everyone do that? And I think they would be fun to dance to while cleaning house too.

Sunday, May 10, 2009

Happy Mother's Day

This morning Michael woke me up asking for cream for his poison ivy {yes, it's been an interesting week in this house} and breakfast. I asked him what today was and he said Sunday, then remembered it was Mother's Day and ran to get my gifts he made at school and was hiding since Friday. He made me close my eyes while he got them out of the cabinet and then announced I could open them. He was so excited! He made me a butterfly magnet, a card, drew a picture with a description of me & had a recipe book from his class. I cried. I'm a sap.

Lydia was upset that she didn't have anything for me so I gave her paper & crayons and she drew me a little picture. From the arguments & back talking I don't think they fully understand the concept of Mother's Day. Though aside from hand made gifts at school, it's pretty much like any other weekend. And that's okay, today is all about spending time with my kids, the people in my life that make this day special for me.



Happy Mother's Day to all of the mom's out there! Special hugs sent to those who are missing their moms or children on this day.

Sunday, February 1, 2009

Need to Scrap

Well, I haven't scrapped anything this week and probably won't do any pages today BUT I am hoping to organize my stuff and get prints ordered TODAY so I can scrap sometime this month! I really want to finish Lydia's first year album over the next two months, should be a reasonable goal with only 11 topics. I'll just have to make the time to get it done. Then I can focus on 'catching up' on the family albums and maybe even my wedding album one day! ;) PS Winkflash.com is having a 6 cent 4x6 print sale, not sure how long it's going to last but you can get 100 prints for $6.00 + shipping, not a bad deal! Since I didn't scrap this week I obviously didn't meet the challenge to scrap something sweet but I am thinking of something to do for Valentines day for the kids & have found some fun ideas that I'll be mulling over. I just found out about this underwater restaurant and thought it would be a fun place to take the kids on V-Day. Shawn & I have never been big on Valentine's so I thought it would be fun to include the kids on it and love on them a little more that day. :)

I do have something craftsy to share today though I didn't make it. My grandma ordered this for me for Christmas and I was finally able to pick it up from the post office two days ago. I thought it would be fun to share after posting about Army ACU's taking over the house. By the way, we still haven't found a place for all of his gear & there is a pile next to the dining table.



I took off the name tape with my last name on it for the pictures but it goes in the blank velcro space. The side has snap enclosures & the inside is roomy with lots of pockets to hold everything I carry with me - which is usually a lot. Planner, wallet, LOOK Books, business cards, keys, lip balm, compact, cell phone, zip pouch with order forms & pen, gloves (lately) and usually I have tissues and wipes in there too. This was made with one of Shawn's ACU tops and his patches. If you'd like to order one for yourself or someone you know - she also does non-military bags you can go here.

To see what other scrappers who probably got scrappy this week have been up to click the button above. If you're here from SS have a scrap happy week & wish me luck in getting back on the ball!

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

Gobble Til You Wobble

Happy Thanksgiving!

I LOVE Thanksgiving - fall is my favorite season, the leaves turning and falling, the crisp air, the pumpkin pie, turkey dinner & all the fixings...LOVE it all. This Thanksgiving is especially sweet. Shawn is home earlier than expected and we're all in good health. Last Thanksgiving was celebrated a week late because of a nasty stomach bug being passed around at my parent's house. We are cooking our first Thanksgiving meal this year. We may or may not end up having guests - depends if any of the single soldiers end up coming over. But even if it's just the four of us it will be special. Not only because Shawn is home but because it's our first time doing Thanksgiving and my first year EVER not having multiple houses to go to or having two {or more} Thanksgiving meals within a week. As a kid we were always hopping around from family to family & that increased more after my parent's divorce.

I've got cranberry sauce chilling in the fridge, pumpkin pies baking in the oven & more to do tonight but I wanted to take a moment & share what I'm thankful for this holiday. I really should sit & write it down more often but I am thankful for so many things year round.
  • My Family - Without their love & support I would have had a much more difficult 14 mos while Shawn was away.
  • My Husband - I'm so blessed that he is home but even more than that I'm blessed that while we were half a world apart his love for me did not fade. While he may leave his stuff all over the place & I may never see the bottom of the laundry basket again he's a great husband. He supports & encourages me in every way, sees things in me I usually don't & catches me when I feel like I'm going to fall.
  • My Kids - They are loud, obnoxious & wild and I wouldn't have it any other way. (unless I have a headache or am pms'ing) ;) They are so sweet, fun to watch & make me smile daily.
  • My Friends - old & new, near & far. The phone calls, computer chats, going to lunch or out shopping & girls nights have been fun, encouraging & usually just what I needed to keep going day to day. Even my blog friends/readers have been a support & it's been fun getting to 'know' you all.
  • My Savior - I don't talk about my faith a lot on here, for various reasons, but I am thankful everyday that Jesus died for my sins to save my poor soul so that I may have eternal life with him.
  • My Freedoms - I'm thankful to live in America where I am truly free, can exercise my voice without fear and for all of the members of the military who work & fight to protect those freedoms daily.
I hope you all have a wonderful Thanksgiving! No matter who you are celebrating with or what meal you are eating take some time to think about what or who you are thankful for. Time to clean up the kitchen some before finishing up the food & mopping the floors. I'll share our "rookie" meal in another post.

Sunday, September 21, 2008

Look What I Can Do!

Haha, made ya look! ;) Well, after 10 days of not posting I suppose I should. I'm sure ya'll are just waiting on baited breath for what I've got to talk about huh? No? Good! I'd hate for you to get your hopes up. So here's the run down of the goings on for us in Kennessee:

* I let the kids eat a popsicle out of the box I bought at the beginning of the summer - this is the second or third time they've done this so they REALLY enjoyed it & I got proof that I didn't completely deprive them as kids.

* Michael now has a twin bed! He still fit in his toddler bed {he's on the smaller size} but I've been wanting to get him one. I found one on a yardsale sight - great deal & just what I was looking for. It has three drawers underneath & a bookshelf for a headboard. So not only can he sleep on it but it's functional as well! However, he is still sleeping on a toddler mattress which is placed on his twin bed. I haven't had a chance to go get a mattress but hope to do so next week.

* With the new functional bed in Michael's room I have moved his dresser into Lydia's room & will soon be freeing her from baby jail, otherwise known as the crib. I'm nervous about the transition into a toddler bed. She can be trouble enough without free reign, I'll have to triple check that all pens, crayons, markers & other things that can be used to leave a mess for me to clean later are put well out of her reach before bed. I am very excited about decorating her room though, have some fun ideas that I hope to execute over the next couple months.

* We recently marked 12 months of my husband being deployed. Looking back it's gone by a lot faster than we both thought it would, though there have been times for both of us that it felt like it would never end. We have made it through this far & only have the slow stretch home now. In a few weeks I'll find out just how much longer we have - I'm crossing my fingers for good news but trying not to get my hopes up. On about the same day we've crossed the two year mark of Shawn being active duty.

* I got my hair cut! Well, not all of it. I have decided to let it grow out some, it's been about a year that I've had the shorter 'do & I'm getting a little bored. I'm thinking about new colors too but not decided on anything yet. So this time I just cut my bangs. I had the sideswept look but it was grown out & not doing anything for me. I felt frumpy or unfinished even when taking the time to 'do' my hair so now I have bangs. I'm happy with it and will probably keep these for a while, I haven't had regular bangs in years. I sent a picture via cell phone to my sister & she asked me if I colored it or got a new style too. An $8 plus tip bang trim can go a long way I guess.

* Other than the above it's been the typical taking Michael to & from school {which he is LOVING btw}, trying to keep the house clean, fighting the laundry battle, running errands, cooking meals & working my business.

Thanks for dropping by!






Thursday, September 11, 2008

7 Years


This morning I did an odd thing. I made a cup of coffee, sat on the couch & turned on the news while the kids played in their rooms. I haven't watched the news in nearly a year, because my husband is deployed, because of the tragic events that happened seven years ago. As I watched the news clips showing the attacks and some of the aftermath the thoughts & feelings I had that day came rushing back fresh. I lived in California, so far from it all, but it hit so close to home. I was 19, I was scared, I was sad for all of the lives lost & the family members they left behind. I didn't know what the future held for our country. Never in my lifetime was our soil attacked so viciously and in such a large scale.

I felt that we needed to take action against those who attacked us. The points that were attacked - World Trade Center & Pentagon (possibly an aim for the White House) were not random. They were attacking what they hated in our country - capitalism, military & a government founded on democracy. We lost more than innocent lives that day, we lost a sense of security and care free living. But also on that day we heard of heroic acts such as that on flight 93, they took back control of the plane & thwarted the plan of the enemy, all of the firefighters, police & service members who put their lives at risk to save others.

About one month after 9/11 I met Shawn. He wasn't in the Army yet but had talked about wanting to join, he had wanted to for a few years. Five years after the attacks he did join. And now he is overseas, defending the freedoms we value in our country. He is helping a people who had freedom withheld from them by a ruthless dictator. Giving freedom to others, I believe, is part of our responsibility as a world power that was founded on freedoms.

Today as you think of those who were lost in the tragedy of 9/11 also remember those who have fought, gave all, and continue to fight defending our country & keeping the fight off of our soil.

P.S. On my playlist there's a song called "How to Save a Life" by The Fray - it's a remix dedicated to 9/11. You may need a tissue.

Monday, August 18, 2008

Twice a Month {or so} Cooking Part 2

When I left off yesterday I was going to the commissary to get the missing ingredients {TRIPLE check your lists!} and came back home to continue with the massive meal making. Unfortunately the afternoon didn't go quite as smoothly as the morning. I think for a few reasons. First off, the kids are in such better moods in the morning than the afternoon, second I had such a long break between cooking {about 3 hours} that I got out of my 'groove'. We had to break for dinner, which ironically was leftover pizza - yes, I was cooking all day long & we ate left over pizza! The kids were getting antsy & wanted to go outside so after cleaning up the kitchen & having them pick up their toys I took them out to blow bubbles and run around before the bugs ate us all alive. After the bubbles they were a mess so it was bath time and shortly after was bedtime. Earlier I figured I'd pick up cooking again once they were in bed but by that time I was just done. So I poured myself a glass of wine & relaxed.


These are the meals I finished yesterday: Tortellini & Garden Vegetable Bake, Crockpot Cranberry Chicken, Italian Sausage & Spinach Casserole, and Moroccan Chicken Stew.


While I was cooking the kids were playing with their toys, pretending all sorts of games & eventually I did put on a movie - I was desperate to finish.


This morning I grabbed my coffee & got cooking again. I made Pasta Primavera with Asparagus, Taco Meat, and browned meat for Sloppy Joes. Why didn't I finish said Sloppy Joe meat? Well, I didn't look closely enough at the seasoning packet while at the store yesterday so I didn't pick up tomato paste. I was going to start a crockpot of chili but found that I had everything but tomato sauce on hand - this wasn't one of the meals I had originally planned so it doesn't count as forgetting an ingredient. So it will take one more trip to the store and a quick afternoon of cooking before I'm done.



With all of the glitches, interruptions & setbacks I am still excited about cooking once or twice a month rather than every night. I'll be posting recipes later today or tomorrow! Hope you had a great weekend!

Sunday, August 17, 2008

Twice a Month {or so} Cooking Part 1

I have finally done it ya'll. After months of knowing I at least needed to have a shopping list when I went to the store that ventured beyond milk, cereal, ice-cream, bananas, apples & bread - the true essentials in life - I started menu planning a couple weeks ago. I didn't participate in the meme because I didn't have time to write up a post on it. Do you know the time that can go into finding recipes, writing up a shopping list & then rewriting that list by department of the store so you aren't wandering back and forth for 2 hours. Well, that was such a success that I've decided to take it up a notch and cook several meals in one day, freezing most for us to eat over the next couple weeks.

With the menu planning I always knew I had something to cook, even if I didn't feel like cooking that night. Because of this I went to the store less often, when I did go I knew exactly what I needed (either my menu shopping or get more perishables like milk & fruit), and I didn't order out as often - I was at 2 times a week folks. I allowed myself the occasional mac 'n cheese night & left days for leftovers, with it just being me & the kids I really only need to cook half or 1/3 the meals I normally would have to plan for.

So far I've found the following to be helpful:

1. A pot of coffee, creamer & sugar on hand: If you're like me & don't enjoy cooking you'll need all the motivation and energy you can get. Plus if you started earlier than I did - and plan to next time - you'll need it!





2. A playlist with music you enjoy: Mine is on the computer, I have a mix of slow & upbeat songs & really like the combo. Next time I do this I want to have my mp3 player situated so the kids don't have to listen to my blaring music if they don't want to. Also, choose your music carefully. If there's a song that you love but it could bring you to a tearful breakdown, you may not want to hear it while chopping onions, measuring ingredients or reading a recipe. But if you don't mind the teary therapy, like myself, let it play.
3. Double Triple check your shopping list against your recipes before heading to the store. I started pulling ingredients out for my first meal only to find I didn't have all I needed. Take note if you have to go to a specialty store for a specific item & if there's something you aren't familiar with take a look on the internet & see if you can find a substitution in case you can't find it. Like quick warm tapioca can be replaced with cornstarch - a more common item you'll use again. This time around I have 4 recipes that are missing at least one fairly important {at least looking} ingredient. One of the meals I completed was missing lemon juice but it wasn't much so I decided it wasn't important - I could be wrong.

4. If you can, get the kids out of the house. Mine have done pretty well so far but I'd have rather had them occupied outside of the house & more importantly the kitchen. Lunch was kept simple - as it usually is - and I used that time to wash pots, measuring cups, spoons, knives, etc.
5. Pull out all of the ingredients for each meal so it's all at your fingertips as you go through your recipe. Also, taping the recipe to a cabinet/wall/window - anywhere eye level helps. That way you don't get the paper dirty, lose it or catch it on fire - I did NOT do the last one but ya never know. If you're cooking from a cookbook of course you can't tape that to the wall but having one of those little prop stands would be helpful.


6. Use & abuse your crockpot! That can be your meal for the night of massive meal making or you can use it to make stews, soups, chili, etc. to freeze later. If you cook it on a 4 hour setting you could get 2 or 3 meals to freeze throughout the day while you are cooking other meals. More bang for your time & most crockpot meals are low prep and simple ingredients.



And now I'm off to the commissary to get the forgotten ingredients and finish my massive day of meal making. I'd rather have been cooking this whole time but lesson learned for next time. Have a great day & stay tuned for Part 2!

Wednesday, August 6, 2008

I Need a Vacation from my Vacation

va·ca·tion
–noun
1.a period of suspension of work, study, or other activity, usually used for rest, recreation, or travel; recess or holiday: Schoolchildren are on vacation now.
2.a part of the year, regularly set aside, when normal activities of law courts, legislatures, etc., are suspended.
3.freedom or release from duty, business, or activity.
4.an act or instance of vacating.
–verb (used without object)
5.to take or have a vacation: to vacation in the Caribbean.


It's been about a week since we got home from vacation - sadly not #5 definition ;) & I'm still not in a routine. More like a rut, everyday I feel like I'm catching up on stuff around the house, scrambling to finish this or that & not ever getting to all that I was hoping to. I have started making to do lists & that has helped some but I need more structure. I was thinking about this the other day & remembered that sometime way back when I had the household chores assigned to a day(s) and a general daily routine for the kids & I. I could be flexible with it when needed/wanted but I had a schedule. I remember liking it but I don't quite remember how I did it. I can look at the spreadsheet I made that has the schedule {yes, I'm that anal} I just can't picture how it went. I have to do something about it though, being scattered during the day has left projects/tasks/errands unfinished & keeps me up at night which makes for a more challenging day following - exponentially each day is more overwhelming because I'm more tired & feel more out of control. :SIGH:

I've had some comments about the vacation I took, most common is that it was 5 weeks and how did I pull that off? Basically it's because my husband is gone. Not to say I wouldn't go visit family while he's home but it certainly wouldn't be for 5 weeks, ideally it would be a long weekend & he'd go along too. 5 weeks is definitely a long time to be away from home but we went before Michael started daily pre-k & I don't have a 9-5 job to take time off work. In fact, my work goes on the road with me & since the kids go with me too the only thing I had to get taken care of was someone to mow the yard & keep an eye on the house. Similarly, to the last vacation I took I wanted to make the time spent worth the effort getting there. This time traveling took less time but was just as tiring, and there's the expense for the decreasing convenience of flying. For just over what I had planned to spend on a trip to California & back the kids and I ended up going to New Mexico also & I even made a detour {on my own!} to Dallas. Being so far from family & close friends we really only see them once, maybe twice a year so it was nice having more than a quick weekend to visit.

Now with Michael starting school & Lydia turning 2 soon {read: no more free airfare} I'm not sure how often we will make it out. Not only that but traveling with two kids on my own really isn't too fun. So I've told family & friends that it's their turn to visit us. Since moving we've gone to California & New Mexico twice so someone else can visit next. Though I'm not sure I should blow up the air mattress just yet as I was told {by someone who will remain nameless, **cough, cough, SHELL, cough, cough**} I would get a visitor under three conditions:
1. I got married {obviously I won't be sending out invites anytime soon}
2. I had a baby {again, no announcements going out anytime soon - if ever}
3. We moved somewhere more interesting than Kennessee {Kentucky/Tennessee}

Since the first two are out & the Army is in control of the third we may not ever need that air mattress. Ah well, the kids can visit when they're old enough to drive and/or buy their own plane ticket. ;) LOL

Updated to add: Yes, Rachelle, I do in fact have an air mattress - queen size & sits higher off the ground, even has a built in air pump {which is totally useless for blowing up a pool btw}. ;) AND there are almost always good concerts going on out here - I'll check it out & forward the info to you so you can plan for one during your visit of less than 5 weeks. ;)

I also wanted to add that what I said about family/friends visiting us next was only because it would be fun to have them out - not trying to make anyone feel bad here. I realized that it could have come across that way. Traveling can be hard for anyone these days between balancing kids, finances, schedules, work, etc...lots going on & the airlines aren't exactly making people want to jump on board with high ticket prices, cramped seats, little to no food & very limited luggage allowances. I know Shawn wants to make trips out to California & New Mexico sometime after getting back & there will likely {90%} be another deployment even if he doesn't reenlist, in which case I'll be toting the kids around during the summer at some point I'm sure. :) Though if I had visitors we'd see each other 2 or 3 times a year rather than 1 or 2. :D {again, no guilt trip}

Friday, July 18, 2008

Rockin A New Do

I haven't been blogging much while on vacation. First I was in California for 3 weeks - met my new niece, visited family & friends, scrapped and went to the beach {will share photos later}. Now I'm in New Mexico visiting family and it's been fun watching all of the kids play together. While visiting I had to make an appointment with my favorite stylist. :D I'm SO happy I was able to. I appreciate that my hubby works so hard and likes to spoil me once in a while and encourages me to take care of myself. He's so awesome. Anyways, below is a before photo and some after to see all of the changes I made. My hair was very uneven in the front before and had sporatic chunks up to 2 inches longer than the hair right next to it - it was bad ya'll. {Ah! Kennessee is rubbing off on me} I gave up some length to get the cut more even but it will grow again and I'm thrilled with how it turned out. Last time I got my hair done here I had some lowlights put in along with some peekaboo black streaks - this time I asked for the black to be a little more prominent and she was happy to oblige. This cut will grow out well so I won't have to cut it for a few months if I don't want to and the color is so much fun. Thanks for visiting! I'll try to post again in a couple of days but will have more to share when I'm back home.

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Monday, May 12, 2008

Stir Crazy

Well I hope everyone had a much more relaxing day yesterday than I did. I'm not complaining, just wishing better for you all. I was in my sweats all day but by no means lazy. I cleaned almost every area of this house and it felt great. Though now that I've put that down in black & white I guess I have no more excuses for the future - darn productivity! Anyways so I was cleaning to get the house ready for hubby. Of course I should have kept the kids outside or in their rooms all day until he gets here if I wanted it to actually stay that way. I'm thinking a picnic table this summer would be a great thing & they could eat all of their meals outside. If we didn't have scary red hornet looking bugs outside I really would do that. Just thinking of how much cleaner the floor would stay makes me sit in aw. As you may be able to tell I'm a little unfocused and well, anxious. Depending on how his flights go I could get a phone call at any minute/hour/day saying he'll be at the airport in ONE hour. The airport that takes me ONE hour to drive to. So I've been obsessively cleaning, pacing and well just trying to keep busy so I don't just sit and watch the clock. And I know that he won't really care what the house looks like, I keep a pretty clean house and he knows that, but I miss him coming home & saying how great things look. I even miss those days he'd come home & ask what I had done all day...those days when I blogged & read blogs more often and things weren't always quite so tidy. I'm excited, anxious & nervous about him coming home. And I'm not complaining because I'm just happy to have him home, even if it's just for a short time, but having a more approximate time would be really nice. I don't like feeling on edge like this. It's like waiting for a surprise that you know is coming. Well I need to get off of here. Lydia is done with lunch which means I have to clean the spot under her highchair again. And I'm sure I'll find other little projects to keep me busy while I wait and try not to look at the clock and figure out flight times...

Thanks for stopping by! I'll post some more recent pics soon.

Tuesday, May 6, 2008

Hellooooo, Anybody Out There??

Wow, so almost another month has past without me blogging. I don't purposely avoid my blog, I just don't think about it nearly so often - stating the obvious I know. I'm not super busy that I don't have time to blog more regularly but I'm not much inspired or motivated? Not that my posts exude of inspiration but I think you know what I mean. Life has been happening and I've been {for the most part} enjoying it. I'll give you a quick bulleted update for now & maybe one day soon I'll get back to being more bloggy.
  • Michael starts part day preschool today - he is very excited and so am I. I will have three hours a day two days a week with only one child in tow.
  • Michael is finally potty training, still making progress but he's much more interested than he was.
  • I earned another 'promotion' in my business. I can now wear my Red Jacket to meetings & company events and am only one recruit away from my next promotion & commission increase.
  • Lydia {mostly} sits still while I put her hair up in one or two little pony tails - so cute!
  • Hubby is doing well and should be getting a promotion next month.
  • We're getting closer to R&R - though I can't give out specific dates.
Well I guess that's most of the highlights. I've also done some more organizing - still no paint or curtains in the kitchen, I'd like to work on the curtains at least. I have several projects that I'm hoping to finish before Shawn comes home while leaving me plenty to do after he leaves again. I hope everyone is doing well & I'll try to browse around some blogs over the next few days. Thanks for visiting & checking in on me!

And here are some pictures of the paint can I made for my sister's shower. She's using it in the nursery to hold the baby's headbands, brushes, hats - all things related to the head. I forgot to take pictures of the letters so I'm waiting to get a picture from my sis.


Thursday, April 10, 2008

So I Had Some Thoughts

"Had" being the key word. I haven't been posting as regularly as I used to or reading blogs so often either. I'm okay with that though. We've been working on getting back into a routine, I've had more Mary Kay appointments and the weather is much nicer some days lately so we've been getting out of the house. On the other hand I do miss my internet 'friends' and do want to check in more than I have been. After the hacked e-mail fiasco I changed the e-mail associated with my blogger account but forgot to change the e-mail that comments are sent to . So I was quite surprised to see so many comments when I looked at my blog one day. I thought any readers I may have left went to find a more regular blogger or one with more interesting things to say - couldn't blame you on either count. So like I was saying the other night watching one of the fluff TV shows I watch before bed I had some thoughts that I was going to share and have completely forgotten them. Seriously, if it's not in my planner or my little notebook I keep with me at all times I don't remember it anymore. Someone has been telling me it's part of the aging process but I'm in denial and blaming it on my children. Instead I'll address some of the comments/questions that have been left for me over the last however far I go back.

First off, I still don't know what motivated the hacker to get into my accounts. The only "logical" reason I can think of is they were hoping to get some financial information and when they didn't find that they decided to harass friends on my messenger for their password information - posing as me of course. I've decided they must have been a very sad person who has no life of their own and nothing better to do. I'm just glad it's over and have tightened up security on all of my accounts.

It's been pointed out that the countdown to see my husband is fast approaching and it is! We still don't have official dates for his R&R but it's closer than it's ever been and I'm VERY excited about that. I am SO looking forward to picking him up from the airport and having him home, even if it's only a couple of weeks. I think we all need a little break of "normal" right about now. I think R&R will greatly help me get through the rest of the deployment - however long that ends up being.

Thank you all again for your sweet comments of support for my husband, myself and my family. It is so refreshing to hear that politics set aside people still support & appreciate our troops and the sacrifices that they & their families make for this great country as ours. As imperfect as it is I am so blessed to live where we have the freedoms to voice our opinion {whatever that may be} and take a stand.

I'm glad so many people like the playlist I put up. I've had fun with it and often listen to it while cleaning house or playing with the kids. And yes, I am still cleaning house even though I haven't been SMART posting. SMARTing is being put on hold for a while. I actually seem to be doing better overall around the house than when I was hyper focused on one or two new 'habits'. I do still want to post Sunday Scrap - whenever I actually scrap again. Time to get some things organized & schedule that time in for myself too.

Okay well I think that's about the longest catching up "hereswhatI'vebeenupto" post so I'll say see ya later. Thanks for stopping by!

Wednesday, April 2, 2008

What A Week

I didn't realize it's been so long since I've posted. It's been a busy week between the house, kids, my growing Mary Kay business and just life in general. I did get a new password for my yahoo account two days after my account was hacked. So I got in there, retrieved e-mail addresses & other info I wanted and deleted the account. Did the same with myspace. So that's all done. It wasn't fun switching all of my accounts around and I hated the feeling of someone going around talking to people with my name & picture but it could have been a lot worse as they didn't get into any other accounts - especially financial ones. So that is done. I've decided at least for now not to privatize my blog. I check out my site reader and haven't seen any creepy searches that bring people here so I think I'm okay. I did remove my e-mail address from being public so I feel a little better about that.

Not much more than that for today. I'm trying to get more organized and get some kind of routine in place so I don't have a lot to talk about. I'm going to put up some pictures of the kids at Easter. They had a good time & I was happy with the photos I got. Thanks for stopping by!


P.S. I haven't been browsing blogs much lately but will try to catch up soon.

Wednesday, March 26, 2008

Violated

So I had planned on having some kind of normal post by now, Easter weekend recap maybe. And then yesterday happened. My yahoo & myspace were hacked into. Long story short I learned a VERY important lesson the hard & frustrating way. So take note & learn from my mistakes:
  • Follow the password prompts that warn you your password is low security.
  • Don't use a password that someone could figure out in short conversation.
  • Change your password periodically so you don't feel too 'safe' with it.
  • Even 'casual' conversation can reveal a lot of details.
  • Don't be so trusting of people you don't really know.
  • People LIE!
So the last couple of days I've been trying to sort this out, warn anyone on my friends lists that some person is out there posing as me trying to get their information and frantically switching all of my online accounts to my alternate e-mail address. It's been frustrating & tedious. So far it doesn't seem there is any serious damage done & I'm SO thankful it wasn't worse. I made a new myspace but made it private and will not add anyone to my friends list - messenger or myspace unless I know them. I have been thinking about my blog and if I should make it private. So that's something I'm still thinking about. I hope that by this weekend I'll have more of a clear mind to do a more regular post. For now I've got my thoughts & plenty around the house keeping me busy. Oh & I have I mentioned how much 'tude a 3 year old can have? :sigh:

Monday, March 17, 2008

I'm Still Here

I'm still around just been busy with things around the house, working my business and being introspective. Thank you for your previous comments and I apologize if anyone was worried I went off the deep end. I haven't - not yet at least ;) Seriously though, I did struggle some yesterday morning feeling overwhelmed with various things and had trouble staying focused. But I'm working on it. I need to get some things figured out & get a new routine around here so that doesn't happen so often or get more intense. I may not be around the blogosphere for a bit of time but I'm not gone forever.

Also, for those who have asked or have told me they are thinking of or praying for my husband, thank you. I have been able to talk to him over the computer a few times and once over the phone in this last week. He is doing well, sometimes working on little sleep but doing well. He is really excelling & standing out as a leader. I am SO incredibly proud of him.

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